never do today

SHIIELAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! NOOOOOOOO!!

















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wow I haven't posted on here in a while. I can't believe the last thing I posted was that I got accepted to Greenville. Since then I've been at Greeniville for a semester and am now into the next semester. I almost died like three times but I made it with God's help and my families help, not mention some friends here at college. Alex took care of me mostly though. heh ok so I had lots of support.

right now I'm actually in the middle of a class. Biology. i really like Biology. I think I'm probably going to major in it with an emphasis on zoology. its weird how life changes. I hate change. Holly was right about the guys, there aren't any here. ok except for maybe one or two :-)
we're talking 6'5 all muscle, and masculine. akemm anyway. POTO ROCKS!

I've been accepted to greenville!!!! YAy! Its crazy because they took me without having a diploma. They just went by my grades. Pretty sweet eh? I'm pretty scared to go to college but everybody keeps saying I'll have lots of fun, friends and .. guys. heh not really. thats the only thing i can think of to say oh ya and vote on my poll.

Poll #780403 MY CHOKER!!!
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i'm depressed. The rest of this is rambling so don't read if you have soemthing better to do.

I really don't have many good reasons, just nothing to do, nobody cares, and i'm ugly and fat, i don't have friends or a life. Oh ya and my iPod isn't working, and i saw a pic of liveG (our halo buddy) and he just doesn't really look how i thought. Its not that awful.

Of course tomorrow I won't feel so bad. I think its because i spent the weekend in greenville helpin alex get home and it was pretty fun and then we get home and they put me to work right away. I start fighting with nathan and jess about absolutely Nothing. I think its just a bad mood. But i wanted to type it all out so i could see if was worse then i thought.

Ok i think im done. I'm gonna try to think of something good thats goin on.
OHHhhh alex is home for the summer which is nice. I'll probably get to the gym more often. I'm feeling braver and braver these days i made it through most the movie, Aviator. Which is pretty good, for me anyway.

Ok good feelings gone, my dad ticks me off

TAKING ACT IN 4 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M TWENTY AND I DON'T HAVE A LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SPRING IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HAVE A BONZAI TREE!!!!!!!!!!!

i know nobody reads this but its kinda fun to just get on and say what you've been doing just so you're sure of it yourself.

Me and my sister are taking the ACT test soon, and i'm kinda excited but mostly scared. I need to do really good because it might decide where i go to college. SOooo thats kinda crazy.

My fish are doing really well and my tank looks so clean and good, it makes me happy. And good little betta Will Scarlet is as lively as ever.

OH ya i spent a week in Greenville College with my sister Alex and my best friend Holly. It started out a little tough but i had a good time. I got to see what college life is kinda like. Minus the classes and being friends with everybody there. heh

I'm reading Lassie Come Home, ya, that tells you how desperate I am. I just always have to be reading something. No matter what it is. Weird i know.

I am very much enjoying my new iPod video, which i got for my birthday. its soooooooooo nice. to be able to have all my music with me everywhere one this thing as big as half a deck of cards is AWESOME. plus if i can get my good friend holly to make some clips of POTO for me, i'll be in heaven. lol

Well i think that is pretty much all. Alex and Holly are home for spring break and I think i'm going to be depressed when they leave. OHHH ya and my stupid school work is never going to be done. I just HAVE TO finish, Wah.
I NEED NEW SHOES!!!!!!!!!

ok enough whining, heh

well technically its over now. I had a pretty good day. I talked to lots of people and lots of people wished me a happy birthday. Among my favorite are Holly, THordog and LiveG, TomahawkRed,(halo buddies) Anthony, and Bonnie. and mY FAMILY! lol
I got some pretty red tulips, and a balloon and some gifts from bonnie. I need to open them.
I think we're waiting to celebrate my birthday this weekend so we didn't really do anything big, but i got lots of chocolate. Chocolate cake, chocolate cupcakes. I don't feel 20, but then again i feel old. its weird.

I'm excited because in june i think i'm gonna get to see the Phantom of the Opera play in St. Louis! I can't wait. Its gonna be awesome.

I got two new fish, i put my Betta in a bowl after he ate my last tetra. Then i bought two little gold platys fish. they are pretty fun to watch. I still have a snail and my 2 ghost shrimp. Everything else is dead and/or eaten. I want to get some more, hopefully this weekend.

WEll thats my life. I hope everybody had a great valentines day.

I'm upset because my Phantom obsession is already calming down. Its not as bad anyway.

My sucker fish died and another tetra got half eaten. So i'm thinking of putting my betta somewhere else and putting other fish in my tank. I have no life.

My brother and my dad went to kansas city for five days and left me and jess and my mom by ourselves. We had a good time actually. We went to see Pride and Prejudice with a friend and surprisingly i actually really liked the movie. I want to see it again. ANd then one night we went to a friends house to watch POTO. I didn't enjoy it as much i think because i think i was too worried the friend wouldn't like it, poto being a musical and all.
Well i did miss nathan though and i was glad when they got back. They seemed to have had a good time too.

I've been reading up a storm and i think i've read 12-13 books since Christmas. Pretty sad i know.

I've got a weird feeling something good is going to happen though. hope everybody else is doing great.

So i'm still on the whole POTO thing right now, i can't seem to get over it. I learned that Gerard Butler is scottish or something and has a heavy accent and that he has GREEN eyes i guess, at least according to one source, they look pretty darn grey to me. Anyway no matter what its totally made me go back to liking grey eyes the best.

The most exciting thing that has happened to me recently is that i have some new tankmates, A plecos fish, 2 neon tetras and a gold mystery snail. The poor guy took who helped me get them didn't know what he was doing and got me the wrong tetras at first and had to start all over, and then it was hard to get one and a bunch of other stuff so i ended up naming my plecos fish after him... Travis. The snail is Leonard and the tetras are Dori and Nori, i need to get more of them. they are tiny. OKkk too much about that I realized it doesn't interest anybody else. But i'm happy about it. I finished Inkheart, The Thief Lord and i'm more then halfway through The Dragon Rider. I do kinda like Cornelia Funke's style but they are little kiddish books. I still like them though.

Oh ya and i am playing more halo recently. I'm a 24 overall and a 21 in snipers. Which isn't bad especially for a girl.

OOOHHhhh i don't want to work tomorrow, i wish there was one more day to the weekend.

I'm happy because i have poto music stuck in every body's head in my family. I even watched Reign of Fire to see GB in it, he's pretty cute in that movie till they kill him off. OKkk i'm going to be quite now. Hope everybody has a more exciting and purposeful life then mine.

I had a greeeat christmas and new year. I still can't believe its 2006 though. We still have some family with us from the holidays. Its been a blast though. I'm now in depression from everybody leaving including my sister alex and my best friend holly. Before alex left we watched phantom of the opera and i love it now. the music and the phantom wHO is a total hunk. Kelcie you and i have great taste. I'm just sorry i haven't seen the movie till now. I'll try very hard not to talk to much about it. Can i just say that I sooooooo love grey eyes?

Ok anyway, i have soooooooooo much to read from christmas presents i don't know where to start.

Man i can't get this movie's music out of my head! its been 3 days! Maybe watching it everyday isn't helping. lol. and i am not obsessed alex i'm just impressed immensely.

Congrats to the Band CR.(coldrain) they rock, i think they should have taken my idea CC... countrychickens I mean good name right!?

Man I am HUNGRY, i think i always say that on here? I'm always hungry i guess.

Well i can't think anything else. the phantoms hot. there

I finally got a fish!!!! He's really red except he has a little bit of purple on him. he's very pretty and very active, swimmin around his tank. I also got two little ghost shrimp which i thought would just hide and instead they are swimming all over the tank like crazy. Its sooooo fun and nice to have them in my room.

Besides that absolutley nothing going on. I'm reading LOTR again and thuroughly enjoying it, also to put my mind at rest about the whole Aragorn talking to Eowyn parts i went back and read the first drafts of LOTR to see what was in Tolkiens mind when he was writing it. I finally found out what the whole back story was. So now i don't think i'll ever worry about it again. Its too complicated to put on here so if you want to know you'll hafta ask. I'm very satisfied to know it.

I'm also listening to the LOTR soundtracks I'm just in a totally LOTR zone.

Its funny even though i am i named my fish Will Scarlet. BUt it did name my little shrimp Bifur and Bofur, dwarves from the Hobbit. MAn you can tell what a boring and stupid life i have.
But i am excited about christmas and seeing everybody thats gone and also i can't wait to see chronicles of narnia. if it isn't too scary.

lets see how my definition compares

so i'm working late trying to clean the house and get it ready for jess and nath's band practice the next day and mama tells me i have to work tomorrow and maybe for the next two weeks(ok she is sick) and guess what, nath and jess have band practice for the next two weeks everyday! i mean its not like my school is calling me telling me that if i don't finish soon that they're gonna kick me off. So then i'm working today and i feel real sick and dizzy and stuff and it doesn't matter because nobody can come help because they are at band practice having the time of their life after they come home from getting their school done at a school and getting to see their tons of friends.

I think i hit all three pretty well, its the best i could do. i'm just trying to improve the dictionary, not find any lame, dumb, and stupid reason to complain about my life.


namarie'

Your date is Aragorn. He is caring, loving, and
considerate. He will also put his life on the
line for your well-being. Plus, he is the
future king! That would mean you'd be the
Queen! He may not be that fast in the romance
department, but, hey, he's been living in the
wild away from civilization for a bit. Give him
time to get to know you, and reap the benifits
of patience, you lucky girl!


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Soooo we're back from Thanksgiving. we were at my uncle curts from wed. to sun. and boy was it a blast. We ate like the weavers we were ment to be. I mean man have i missed a weaver thanksgiving. the funnest part was that we were all together, every single one of us. all four brothers and all their wives and kids. i even got to see my cousin from florida. we laughed and ate and ate. and we did some shopping too.

but its kinda nice to be back. though i can't think of the reasons now.

me and jess are right back on track with our eating healthy and excersizing. we did tae boe today and everything. i didn't eat anything after six. We are determined to lose weight.

Other then that nothing is going on. i give up on school.

now that we're home for a while i'm going to get a fish. Man i'm sooooooo tired, its almost two and here we are at work and only cause my dad is playing halo. i mean i would if i could but i can't.

tha tha tha thats all folks

Not much going on, my last geometry test i got two wrong! grrr and i thought i was doing so well......
I still haven't got a new fish. I really want to get one but my family and i have been on a trip for the last like four weekends. Its crazy but kinda fun. This is the only weekend we've been home in like ever.

So last night i couldn't go to sleep, it was weird, i hadn't gotten up late and i wasn't worried or anything but nothing i did would make me sleepy, i tried reading, watching a movie( i watched two) and finally at 5:30 I think i fell asleep, but it didn't matter because i had to get up at 6:30 for work. ya soooooooo i'm exhausted and tired. I'm at work by myself today too! So no help, no sleep, no good grades, no fish. i mean i know i shouldn't be pessimistic but how can i be optimistic with odds like that? welll at least i wasn't hurt bodily like holly though. lol

Holly you're gonna hafta tell me all about how the harry potter movie was. I'm sure it was good.

I can't wait for the Chronicles of Narnia but then again i'm worried it'll be a little scary but then its only rated PG so it can't be that bad. lol i'm such a wimp. But there wouldn't be strong people if there weren't wimps right?

Its weird I'm going into a LOTR and Beatles phase, i'm listening to the beatles reading LOTR and listening to LOTR soundtracks. It brings back memories and i forgot how great they are.
k i'm all talked out

holly you'll hafta tell me how that thing works. did it have questions to every answer you gave? or were you just supposed to put anything you wanted? i wouldn't mind doing it.

sooo today was a sad day for me. indi died. no matter what i did for him he just went downhill. i've been reading up a bunch on it and i think i fussed over him too much and moved him too much. now that i think about it he was always a kinda weaker fish from the start. i found an awesome chat where all the people do is talk about fish and they are soooooooooo nice. everytime i go on there they answer all my questions and help me as much as they can.

i'm not really sure yet if i want to try to keep a fish again. i get way too attached to things way too fast. but the people on aquachat said i shouldn't give up, that all of them had to go through it too.
lol my word here i am talking about a fish on here!

nothing else is going on except the usual loafing and nothing to read and work work work. i'm too depressed to keep talking it would get really sad and dull so i'll cut it short.

hope everybody else is having a better day then me.

So now i have a couple of things to put on here, i've actually had a crazy couple of days. OHH and by the way holly that thing from will &grace i gotta see. that person has some taste. it had to be Goran they were talking about. I wanted to make him one of my icons on here but all of the ones i have are too big and i have no idea how to resize them. I'm so computer stupid.

Ok the things that happened to me. The other day this guy who is a good friend of mine, he is easy to talk to and fun to argue with and then he has to go and tell me that he likes me! ohhhh why do guys have to be that way? he knows that i have a stinky past with guys and that i am not even interested in liking anybody. but he has to tell me anyway! grrr now i'm afraid everything will have to be different. actually we have talked a little bit since then and so far its kinda ok. but its only over IM. in person is totally different.

K the other thing ohhh its soo terrible. So i'm at work and then me and my dad and his student Todd (a nice, 6'4, intelligent, gentleman) have to go to a meeting at a restaurant. Well i didn't feel dressed up enough but i had to go anyway. We get there and the place is packed so we decide to go somewhere else. which was a relief to me. We decided to go to olive garden and my told Todd to invite his girlfriend. well I had started to feel carsick and i thought it would go away. But it didn't and I didn't want to meet Todd's girlfriend and then throwup on her! So i went outside for fresh air and it still didn't help. in fact i was feeling worse. so i asked my dad for the keys to the car but he said that i couldn't be in the car in the city by myself. so we start to walk out and i almost passed out!!!! my dad helped me to a chair and i tried to feel better but it gets EVEN WORSE. don't worry i didn't throw up, instead i get a bladder spasm. it sounds terrible but its something terrible my mom, sister and i get sometimes. my dad and i go outside and end up on a stone bench shakin and in such bad pain i think i'm gonna die. LOL ok this is too long but to make a long story short, it finally went away and I made into the car. i've been drinking water ever since, no soda. So i ruined the night we didn't get dinner, poor Todd got alarmed and couldn't eat anyway! it was sooooo sweet. well at least he didn't have to carry like they said he was! i was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo embarrassed! and Todd's poor girlfriend who we barely saw (she looked like a chick but she mighta been nice, i'll never know now) just left to go home. I felt so bad not to mention all the people that passed by while i'm laying outside of Olive Garden lookin like i'm in a seizure. Ok
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